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11月1日

Just a little something

It seems like eveyone's been writing in his/her blogs and that I've abandoned mine for ages. So...I've decided to write something.
 
Since it's midterm season, everyone I meet is talking (or more like complaining) about midterms. So, fine...it's just what I always do. But what I realized is....how annoying that is. When all you hear is complaining....and so...how annoying I must have been complaining all the time.
 
I'm not sure if it's a down time for eveyone or what...but everyone's writing about depressing things...or maybe it's like a Eng teacher I had says, people usually write great work either they are really really depressed or they are in love. Seldome do people create masterpieces out of nowhere, or being moderately cheerful. sigh...life's like that.
 
So...not too sure what to write...I guess I'll copy other people and post up a song...
 
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
You tell me your blue skies fade to grey
You tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
 
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
 
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
 
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
 
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
 
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
 
So where is the passion when you need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost...
 
 
Hope everyone will cheer up!~~
1月6日

There's stil a lot of good people in this world!

I wrote this two days ago after a little "incidence" so thought I'd put this up...
 
 

Got myself in a situation of facing two elders who happened to be fake beggars today. They were not the typical beggars who just sat by the side of the street or under the bridges. These two were as healthy as any elders of the same age can wish to be. I was walking under a bridge to cross the street. Just then, the old man stopped me as I was about to make by way to the other side of the road. This old man had an accent that was quite hard to understand. When he first approached me, I thought that he was just some old man coming to Beijing for the first time and was lost. So I stopped and gave him a chance to speak. I had a hard time making out what the guy was saying, but then, I heard the word “money”. I understood immediately; he wanted me to give him money. Instantly, a realization washed over me: they weren’t lost; it certainly wasn’t their first time in Beijing; they were swindlers!

       This recognition shocked me a bit. For a second I could not think of what I would do next. Then, I thought, well, these two look quite old, if they are willing to make the effort to be half frozen to death in this weather just for a couple of bucks, I might as well spend a few minutes and listen to what they really want to say. Soon, the old woman who was walking with the guy came toward us too. The first thing she said was ask for money. Together they completed the story of how they are from ShanDong, and they are all out of money and are extremely hungry and thirsty and that their train back is tomorrow night. Their near-perfect acting was go convincing that I’m sure that someone who was very generous would have given them the money.

       Even though I knew that they are using other people’s empathy to get money without honestly earning them, the idea of giving them something and go still lingered in my head. It’s true that they don’t deserve other people’s empathy for they trick people to give them money by play with natural emotions of human and use the empathy that all of the good-hearted people have to earn a living. It’s no wonder that nowadays, a good proportion of the population do not go help those in poverty out of a sincere wish for them to elevate their living standard but rather out of peer pressure and for their own reputation. So back to the story. Just as I was debating whether I should just let these swindlers go by give them a few bucks, another middle aged woman called me. She waved for me to go to her and said, “Hey student, come here! You are going the wrong way!” I knew right there then that she was there to save me. She meant to get me away from the two beggars even though we were strangers to each other. What a good-hearted person!

       These days, the number of free-riders who make a living by faking beggars is increasing day by day. Yet, from today’s incidence, it’s not hard to see that though it seems like “bad-guys” are everywhere, there’s still plenty of people who are willing to help others and be charitable from the bottom of the heart. Looking on the bright side, the “real world” out there is not so scary as many of us imagine, for most of us will likely to meet at least one person who will aid us and always be beside us to be our guiding light.

10月25日

Sunrise!

My first sunrise in HK! How interesting.... hehe ....
 
So maybe it's due to the relieve after I'm done with all my midterms or maybe it's because the stupid grades that depressed me to much, my roomate and I talked through a short and sleepless night. It's weird how we didn't stay up late to study FOR the midterms but rather chatted all the way through the night after I'm finally done with my midterm. Because I didn't get back to dorm until 2 o'clock in the morning, my poor roomate was so worried that she actually called me to ask whether I was ok!  So nice of her!...:) Love my roomate for being so caring all the time...couldn't ask for a better one.
Since both of us are unsatisied with our midterm results so far, we started to complain to each other and then without any of our realization, time quitely slipped by and by the time we knew it, it was already past 5 in the morning. As it's nearly morning already, we decided that we'd actually get up and go watch the legendary sunrise up on the 9th floor this morning -- staying up all night (or what they call "dirving the night bus") is apparently very common during exam time and so watching sunrise is popular as well.
 
Though the sunrise here is not as colorful and brilliant as that that I saw in Maine, it stil gave me some inspirations. (and so here I am writing in my space). The weather today was not very good for far-away-sighting. We could barely see out of the harbor and the sky was all gray when the sun hasn't come out yet. We were waiting quite sometimes before we actually saw the source of the brightness, despite the fact that we actually looked up the time of sunrise beforehand and the sky was already starting to light up when we went up. So we were getting wuite bored as we were waiting and enjoying the scene of looking at the parts of the school that's more of the ocean level and also the stillness of the school that's quite distinct from how we've always seen it during the daytime. Then there it was. The star of the show -- the souce of light and also hope when used figuratively. At first it was quite hard to make out the sun as it was faded behind the clouds. Then as it rose steadily, we say it, the magenta color of the perfect circle, peeking out of the cloud to show its red glow. Both of us were dazzled by the brilliance of the color shown. For a second, it felt like there's was only itself worthing the attending of everything. It felt like the sun was spreading not ony the light but also a feeling of relaxatoin.
 
We didn't wait til the run climb very high before we went down to our room again. Though it was not very long that we stood there, taking in all that the sun has to give, it's enough to drive hopelessness out of me for right now. And as despaire relinquishes, hopefuly, cheerfulness will fill me again. 
 
A new sunrise, a new day, and a whole new beginning.... 太阳
9月26日

Mid-Autum festival!

 It's Mid-Autum festival again. Can't believe we get break fot that as well. It looks like the people in HK is more into the traditional Chinese Culture than the mainland Chinese! But then again, I gues people start to apreeciated once they no longer have something, just like in the U.S. everyone's so into wearing ChiPao and the oriental designed clothes whereas in mainland, no body would go buy that kind of stuff unless it's for some special occasion.
 
Talk about Mid-Autum festival, there's so many different versions of myths about this festival, but I think one thing is for sure -- it's a time when we are suppose to unite with our loved ones. I've been in HK, living on my own for a month now, and just spent the first Mid-Autum festival away from home. Though whenever I want to ttalk to mom or dad, I simply have to punch some numbers, it's still quite different not having them there right in front of me, physically.
People have asked me whether I miss home or not. I guess it's not as bad as when we moved to the States couple years ago, but geting used to live on my own and replying solely on myself to manage my life still requires quite some adjustment. Then again, if I can survive this, I think that I'll have aquired another vital skill to succeed in the future. As they say: what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
 
So, I guess I'll stop right here for now. Until next time!
 
Hope everyone had a lovely Mis-Autum festival! Stay spirited!
 
 
8月15日

It's been a long time!

Wow...It's been a long time since I've been on this blog. This summer I spent some time doing an internship at Beijing Uni. Medical school....and so read a whole lot of articles with of course lots of words that I don't understand (esp those that are 10, 20 letters long...)...but I also learnt quite a lot.  I mean...the ways that scientist and doctors came up with treating just cancer in the liver are alawsome theoretically. All of the ways have their reason and seemed to me perfectly practical. I only got into one of them -- embolization-- and the things that I had to learn and read just to get a big scope of the idea of what's going on was horrifying. But hey, after the first shock wore off, it was actually pretty cool. but since this is still a method under developement, there are still many aspects to be investigated and test.
 
Then after internship... I spent the rest of the time traveling around, and of course watching TV, killing my lovely little brain cells. I guess that didn't do me much good since I can't really write properly now. But oh well, this is only a place to keep track of what I waste all my time on, so I guess it's not that important to write perfectly.
 
So I've had some inspirations lately, but then never got to record them down. Since right now I'm packing for uni. I guess these thoughts will have to wait a bit more...
 
Looking forward to life in uni!..and hope I get to put down all the random thoughts soon...before I lose them. 
11月23日

alea iacta est

Submitted all my college applications yesterday. Now I can really say "the dice has been cast!"  I have one college interview next week and then it's the long nerve-racking period of waiting. At this point, I know there's nothing I can do now. I feel like I've just stepped onto a jet that's about to take off but without a sure destination. Yet, I can't get out it.
My feelings are very mixed about the whole choosing the college thing and I keep on asking myself if i applied to the "right" colleges and whether they are really the best choices I could have made. But that's not important now. I can do nothing about it now...
I guess I'll just have to let whoever's up there overlooking the human society stamp the seal. I can only keep up what I'm been doing and enjoy the rest of the year...at least up to the exams...
 
APAC auditions this weekend...MUST FOCUS...
 
 
11月3日

快立冬了

7号就是立冬了  冬天就快来了。 今天天气预报, 说东北都开始下雪了。 不知道今年的冬天会带来什么?
发张图吧
 
10月29日

End of first quarter

Last Friday was the end of the first quarter. It has been an stressful and nerve-racking couple of months. G4, tests and quizzes almost everyday, and of course on top of all that...College applications.
My Early Actions applications is already sent into the college...I know that I shouldn't have any hope of getting in there, but I'll keep my fingers crossed anyways.
 
Don't really know what to write now...I've written too much for college apps...
 
10月7日

October Break

October break was long but not as relaxing as other breaks. Though we went to ChengDe to see the Imperial Summer Palace in ChengDe, somehow I just couldn't enjoy myself. I just could let it go and really immerse myself in the grand yet delicate scenes. Maybe the pressure is really starting to get to me... All the applications and the end of first quarter at school -- the atmosphere is dense. I'll have to figure out a way to get myself out of this mess...
 
Yesterday was the mid-autum festival. Yet there was no moon in Beijing City. what a shame. We had some grat mooncakes though. Aunt called and she said maybe the moon just became mooncakes. She was trying to cheer us up. But the truth is that the poplution in Beijing is so bad now that you can hardly see anything that's right there in front of you. I think it's time that factories start to close down in the city; otherwise, how are they going to hold the Olympics in 2008?...
9月9日

G4 Project

   This week and the next, we are working on our Group 4 projects. This G4 project is part of the IB syllabus so everyone who's taking IB sciences has to do it. It's like a science fair type of project. OUr project was to push a rocket model up into the sky using a chemical reaction. I thought it was going to work, but who knew I could be so stupid. I completely ignored Newton's third law and kept on thinking that there was something with the bottle when the experiment doesn't work. AAARRRRGGGG.... Anyways, we got it to work now, so I guess it all good now.
   Not too much time to write, I have too much pressure on me right now... Until next time...
9月1日

Last Year of High School

   We are seniors!  Wow, I don't feel like a senior at all. I guess this is going to be a stressful/rewarding year.
   In first semister, we are going to have mucho headaches due to the college apps ggrrrr.... Then in the seconds semister  comes the admission letters hahaha...that wasn't funny, and then the IB and AP exams...eeewwww....
   Anyways, though it seems like I and my fellow classmates are going to face and conquer barriers and blockages, I will keep on telling myself that it's going to be a great year...why?...BECAUSE IT'S THE LAST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL. This year, there will be many firsts and lasts and many some onlys. So... no matter what happens, all's well will always end up well. This year will be the most memorable for I believe most people.
 
Remember: if you keep on telling yourself that it's going to be a good day, the day will turn out to be good!  It's all in you brain!
 
Like they said in one of the Disney's TV shows:  Another Perfect Day!
 
Con Mucho Carino!  (haha got to practice Spanish!)
6月3日

Finally!...School's out!

At Last! I'm done with all my exams, including SATs, unless I failed them. I've been waiting for a long time for this day to come. However, I probably won't be able to rest until next week, when the results come out. For now... I'll just enjoy life!
 
Last Sat. was our Junior/Senior Prom. It was a lot of fun gettin ready for it with Britt. The place of the prom was a gorgeous palace...in the middle of nowhere, and I mean, middle of no where. The castle's even got a mote, a open plaza and everything. One'd not be able to find a place more fairytale-like in Beijing, the only flaw was that it was in the middle of nowhere...
 
We went to China Studies Trip just last week. Xi'an was my destination, along with 58 other people, hehe. I enjoyed the trip very much, but the stupid SAT was always at the back of the mind so I couldn't fully enjoy myself... aayyy. Nevertheless, the terra-cotta warriors were breath-taking and the children's village we visited was one of the best charity organizations I've known.
 
I really really don't feel like writing right now... so today's journal sounds like crap... oh well.
Maybe I'll be able to write better stuff next time...
4月6日

It's time for school again!

Spring Break's over, didn't do much... I stayed home, watched TV, played some flute, skated, and of course study for SAT...
Oh gosh, I hate that test. I swear I'm never going to do well on that test...I just doesn't make sense to me...
 
Anyways, school started again, teachers are pushing harder than ever. So much homework piled on us that we can't even go out to enjoy the colorful blossoms of the spring...what a shame.
 
It's that time of year when people get stressed over everything now... finals, college searches and conferences...ugh. I had my meeting this Tue. it wasn't as bad as I thought. Ms.S actually helped me to figure out a lot of thing, which was nice, and she gave me a lot of useful information. However, she still wants me to do more research and really know where I want to apply to... Looks like I'll be making some important decisions soon...
 
The other day during lunch, somehow, we started to talk about grades again. Yes, grades, the topic that will never fail to get moans from people. A friend was stressed about college choices and worried that she might not get in because of ONE bad grade in past years. It's true that this one grade may be what determine whether she can get in or not, but it's really not all that important to frustrate over about. So, I told her, "Dude, it's ok, one grade won't kill you." She replied, " yeah, it's ok, it's a matter of where I go for college and what my life's going to be like! It's not important at all!" I laughed at her sarcasm, but hey, though she was kidding, there is a certain truth in that statement. so I continued, "you should go and read my MSN screen name, it's my life philosophy! it says don't take life seriously, it's not permanent (by an unknown author)." Both of us couldn't stop laughing after that
 
Though there's great irony in that conversation, there is a truth to certain degree, and sometimes, it helps to think about it that way. At least, I find it useful to diminish the stress sometimes.
3月24日

回:安康

我知道了,  不过经常没多少时间来写这个,所以不怎么打中文的。我打中文打的比英文慢多了!嘻嘻
今天第一天放假,所以这星期写的应该会有中文的! 要记得帮我改哦!
3月12日

Two weeks till Spring Break!

Just two more weeks to go! Thrid quarter's ending soon, then fourth quarter and the end of junior year! I know this is a cliche, but I have to say it...Time flies!
 
Soon, I'll complete my first year coming back to China! This is exciting, but at the same time... not really...
 
Since going to the States and then coming back, I feel like I've completely changed in person. Don't know if I've grown up or just turned into a side-path of life and lost my way... An important decision making is approaching me day by day -- the college apps. People say that it will have a permanent effect on you life... BUT does it? People who don't go to the top schools in the world live fine lives. I don't know, I just don't know anymore. Everything's just so confusing now... I used to have favorite subject in school and favorite teachers and homework that I never dragged to do when I was little. Yet, now... everything I do seems to be for someone else's sake... Things weighing down so heavy that I have no time for myself and no mind to think about what I really wnat anymore...
 
On the other hand though, like some older friends tell me... if I just stick it up through senior year, I'll be done, and then I can really think about what I want to do in life...Who I really want to be... Then, I'll have time to things for my sake and not someone else's.
 
I can agree with what they say, but I don't really believe in it... It's true that after high school, I'll have much more freedom... but then I'll be in college, working really hard because the professors want you to be an "useful member of the society".
 
What's the point? Life is but a journey of searching. People are constantly reaching for a goal, but no one is likely to stay at that goal very long, for they'll have their eyes on the next thing once they achieve the first step. Nobody's ever satified with what they have... NOT even the monks... If they are satisfied, they won't be in the monesaries saying prayers anymore (ok maybe I'm getting a bit carried away... but I mean what I say about life and people searching for things throughout their lives...)
 
Anyways, I'lm just in a wierd mood, I think it's because of the stress. Writing in here kind helps; I can just get stuff out of my head and maybe release some pressure...
 
Wow, I really got off topic... it was meant to be a short and cheerful segment... oh well...
2月26日

Feeling a bit philosophical...

don't know why, just feeling a bit philosophical right now... and this just popped into my mind...
 
Wind blows on the leaves, is it the wind or the leaves that's moving?...
 
That was from a movie I watched a while back... for some reason that line just stuck in my mind...

Winter Olympics

My internet broke down this weekend, I was in RAGE!!! Wow, I can't remember being angry at a computer like this...hehe
 
Now, all's well ended well...
 
Haven't been on here since the New Year break, so let's recap a few things...
1) school started, and it sucked... the teachers are going mad! They gave soooooo much homework and projects to do, it was like they thought it was the end of the world or something...
 
*2)The Winer Olympics of course! Athletes from all over the world made some really amazing records at Torino, Italy. Personaly, I think that the Winter Olympics is sooooo much better to watch than the Summer Olympics... It's just much more challenging.
 
Few of the history made at stuck in my head are -- no doubt they all have to do with skating...:
-The three Chinese couples in pair skating ranked 2, 3 and 4 in the competition...the best result for the team as a whole I believe
-Plushenko won the men's skate by scoring almost 30 points higher than the silver medalist... he did a quad-triple-double jump...geez!
-Japanese Arakawa took the Ladies Gold when everyone was bidding on either Cohen or Slutskaya for Gold. This is the first Gold medal in like 20 years of Olympics or something like that.
-It's so sad that Slutskaya didn't get Gold, otherwise Russia would have sweeped the figure skating Gold for the first time! aawwwww
1月30日

Wow, I haven't been on this for sooo long...

It's Chinese New Year break! And here I am, at Aunt's house, playing around with my cousins... and of course, trying to finish all the homework my lovely teachers assigned.
 
The most wonderous thing happened on New Year's eve. My cousin's Husky dog, after lost for a month, cameback just before the clock striked midnight! My Uncle was goning down into the garden to light some fireworks before the year of the rooster pass by. When he got down the stairs that led intot he yard, he saw a large white thing standing outside the gate; he went closer to the thing to take a good look at it. To his amazement, it was his long lost dog, HaHa! Boy, my uncle was excited. He called us at midnight to announce the gift that literally fell out of hte sky.
I thought about the return of the husky for the past two day; I mean it must have been a coincidence fot the husky to return at that time, cuz what does a dog know aobut Chinese New Year? But then again, this may actually mean something if you think about it.  It may be the gift from whoever's up there. The Husky was lost for more than a month, my aunt and uncle looked for it, but there was no luck. Yet, 10 minustes before the year of the dog danwed, he reappears in front of the master's gate...
Its all very strange if one's willing to think about it that way. Well, now, the Husky is behaving very well, though he doesn't like to run as much as he should, but still, he's cute...
 
 
People lighted up a lot of fireworks these days; my ear's still ringing from the loud explosions that happen like right next to me. I guess a lot of people really felt bored when the government prohibited fireworks in the past years.
 
 
Well, my vacation's going pretty well so far, just hanging around with my counsins, and hopefully rest up for school. omg, the teachers are really gonna pile on when we go back to school again... I just know it...actually they said that...
 
kk, this is turning to be too long of a piece to be posted on my blog, so I'm just gona stop here... hopefully I"ll get a chance to make another entry before school starts again...
 
until next time!...Love, Jen
1月2日

New Beginning

     It's 2006! A brand new beginning for everyone! Yet, we know that nothing really has changed, the people and the places. Yes, new year will being a lot of new opportunities for us, yet I believe that many of still would still like to keep the friendships and remories from the past.
     Thanks for those who came to visit my world! Hope this will provide another bridge between us! esp those who I don't get the chance to talk to a lot.
 
     ayyy, it's new year, I've got to have some new year's resolutions...
        1) get a chance to go and visit my friends across the world over the summer (maybe)
        2) what else...physics....I'm gonna have to get better grades in that class...
        3) let me think what a junior should be doing right now... oh I know! colleges...uh
 
   Best wishes to all my fellows!