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Coming back to the country that had captured my childhood was exciting. But I'll never forget those who had helped me at thatforeign place, without you, there'd never be me...

"I think therefor I am."

"Sometimes it's fun to strive for the impossible."

"海内存知己,天涯若比邻。"

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~ A dream is a wish your heart makes when you are asleep...
November 01

Just a little something

It seems like eveyone's been writing in his/her blogs and that I've abandoned mine for ages. So...I've decided to write something.
 
Since it's midterm season, everyone I meet is talking (or more like complaining) about midterms. So, fine...it's just what I always do. But what I realized is....how annoying that is. When all you hear is complaining....and so...how annoying I must have been complaining all the time.
 
I'm not sure if it's a down time for eveyone or what...but everyone's writing about depressing things...or maybe it's like a Eng teacher I had says, people usually write great work either they are really really depressed or they are in love. Seldome do people create masterpieces out of nowhere, or being moderately cheerful. sigh...life's like that.
 
So...not too sure what to write...I guess I'll copy other people and post up a song...
 
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
You tell me your blue skies fade to grey
You tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
 
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
 
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
 
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
 
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
 
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
 
So where is the passion when you need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost...
 
 
Hope everyone will cheer up!~~
January 06

There's stil a lot of good people in this world!

I wrote this two days ago after a little "incidence" so thought I'd put this up...
 
 

Got myself in a situation of facing two elders who happened to be fake beggars today. They were not the typical beggars who just sat by the side of the street or under the bridges. These two were as healthy as any elders of the same age can wish to be. I was walking under a bridge to cross the street. Just then, the old man stopped me as I was about to make by way to the other side of the road. This old man had an accent that was quite hard to understand. When he first approached me, I thought that he was just some old man coming to Beijing for the first time and was lost. So I stopped and gave him a chance to speak. I had a hard time making out what the guy was saying, but then, I heard the word “money”. I understood immediately; he wanted me to give him money. Instantly, a realization washed over me: they weren’t lost; it certainly wasn’t their first time in Beijing; they were swindlers!

       This recognition shocked me a bit. For a second I could not think of what I would do next. Then, I thought, well, these two look quite old, if they are willing to make the effort to be half frozen to death in this weather just for a couple of bucks, I might as well spend a few minutes and listen to what they really want to say. Soon, the old woman who was walking with the guy came toward us too. The first thing she said was ask for money. Together they completed the story of how they are from ShanDong, and they are all out of money and are extremely hungry and thirsty and that their train back is tomorrow night. Their near-perfect acting was go convincing that I’m sure that someone who was very generous would have given them the money.

       Even though I knew that they are using other people’s empathy to get money without honestly earning them, the idea of giving them something and go still lingered in my head. It’s true that they don’t deserve other people’s empathy for they trick people to give them money by play with natural emotions of human and use the empathy that all of the good-hearted people have to earn a living. It’s no wonder that nowadays, a good proportion of the population do not go help those in poverty out of a sincere wish for them to elevate their living standard but rather out of peer pressure and for their own reputation. So back to the story. Just as I was debating whether I should just let these swindlers go by give them a few bucks, another middle aged woman called me. She waved for me to go to her and said, “Hey student, come here! You are going the wrong way!” I knew right there then that she was there to save me. She meant to get me away from the two beggars even though we were strangers to each other. What a good-hearted person!

       These days, the number of free-riders who make a living by faking beggars is increasing day by day. Yet, from today’s incidence, it’s not hard to see that though it seems like “bad-guys” are everywhere, there’s still plenty of people who are willing to help others and be charitable from the bottom of the heart. Looking on the bright side, the “real world” out there is not so scary as many of us imagine, for most of us will likely to meet at least one person who will aid us and always be beside us to be our guiding light.

October 25

Sunrise!

My first sunrise in HK! How interesting.... hehe ....
 
So maybe it's due to the relieve after I'm done with all my midterms or maybe it's because the stupid grades that depressed me to much, my roomate and I talked through a short and sleepless night. It's weird how we didn't stay up late to study FOR the midterms but rather chatted all the way through the night after I'm finally done with my midterm. Because I didn't get back to dorm until 2 o'clock in the morning, my poor roomate was so worried that she actually called me to ask whether I was ok!  So nice of her!...:) Love my roomate for being so caring all the time...couldn't ask for a better one.
Since both of us are unsatisied with our midterm results so far, we started to complain to each other and then without any of our realization, time quitely slipped by and by the time we knew it, it was already past 5 in the morning. As it's nearly morning already, we decided that we'd actually get up and go watch the legendary sunrise up on the 9th floor this morning -- staying up all night (or what they call "dirving the night bus") is apparently very common during exam time and so watching sunrise is popular as well.
 
Though the sunrise here is not as colorful and brilliant as that that I saw in Maine, it stil gave me some inspirations. (and so here I am writing in my space). The weather today was not very good for far-away-sighting. We could barely see out of the harbor and the sky was all gray when the sun hasn't come out yet. We were waiting quite sometimes before we actually saw the source of the brightness, despite the fact that we actually looked up the time of sunrise beforehand and the sky was already starting to light up when we went up. So we were getting wuite bored as we were waiting and enjoying the scene of looking at the parts of the school that's more of the ocean level and also the stillness of the school that's quite distinct from how we've always seen it during the daytime. Then there it was. The star of the show -- the souce of light and also hope when used figuratively. At first it was quite hard to make out the sun as it was faded behind the clouds. Then as it rose steadily, we say it, the magenta color of the perfect circle, peeking out of the cloud to show its red glow. Both of us were dazzled by the brilliance of the color shown. For a second, it felt like there's was only itself worthing the attending of everything. It felt like the sun was spreading not ony the light but also a feeling of relaxatoin.
 
We didn't wait til the run climb very high before we went down to our room again. Though it was not very long that we stood there, taking in all that the sun has to give, it's enough to drive hopelessness out of me for right now. And as despaire relinquishes, hopefuly, cheerfulness will fill me again. 
 
A new sunrise, a new day, and a whole new beginning.... 太阳
September 26

Mid-Autum festival!

 It's Mid-Autum festival again. Can't believe we get break fot that as well. It looks like the people in HK is more into the traditional Chinese Culture than the mainland Chinese! But then again, I gues people start to apreeciated once they no longer have something, just like in the U.S. everyone's so into wearing ChiPao and the oriental designed clothes whereas in mainland, no body would go buy that kind of stuff unless it's for some special occasion.
 
Talk about Mid-Autum festival, there's so many different versions of myths about this festival, but I think one thing is for sure -- it's a time when we are suppose to unite with our loved ones. I've been in HK, living on my own for a month now, and just spent the first Mid-Autum festival away from home. Though whenever I want to ttalk to mom or dad, I simply have to punch some numbers, it's still quite different not having them there right in front of me, physically.
People have asked me whether I miss home or not. I guess it's not as bad as when we moved to the States couple years ago, but geting used to live on my own and replying solely on myself to manage my life still requires quite some adjustment. Then again, if I can survive this, I think that I'll have aquired another vital skill to succeed in the future. As they say: what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
 
So, I guess I'll stop right here for now. Until next time!
 
Hope everyone had a lovely Mis-Autum festival! Stay spirited!
 
 
August 15

It's been a long time!

Wow...It's been a long time since I've been on this blog. This summer I spent some time doing an internship at Beijing Uni. Medical school....and so read a whole lot of articles with of course lots of words that I don't understand (esp those that are 10, 20 letters long...)...but I also learnt quite a lot.  I mean...the ways that scientist and doctors came up with treating just cancer in the liver are alawsome theoretically. All of the ways have their reason and seemed to me perfectly practical. I only got into one of them -- embolization-- and the things that I had to learn and read just to get a big scope of the idea of what's going on was horrifying. But hey, after the first shock wore off, it was actually pretty cool. but since this is still a method under developement, there are still many aspects to be investigated and test.
 
Then after internship... I spent the rest of the time traveling around, and of course watching TV, killing my lovely little brain cells. I guess that didn't do me much good since I can't really write properly now. But oh well, this is only a place to keep track of what I waste all my time on, so I guess it's not that important to write perfectly.
 
So I've had some inspirations lately, but then never got to record them down. Since right now I'm packing for uni. I guess these thoughts will have to wait a bit more...
 
Looking forward to life in uni!..and hope I get to put down all the random thoughts soon...before I lose them. 
November 23

alea iacta est

Submitted all my college applications yesterday. Now I can really say "the dice has been cast!"  I have one college interview next week and then it's the long nerve-racking period of waiting. At this point, I know there's nothing I can do now. I feel like I've just stepped onto a jet that's about to take off but without a sure destination. Yet, I can't get out it.
My feelings are very mixed about the whole choosing the college thing and I keep on asking myself if i applied to the "right" colleges and whether they are really the best choices I could have made. But that's not important now. I can do nothing about it now...
I guess I'll just have to let whoever's up there overlooking the human society stamp the seal. I can only keep up what I'm been doing and enjoy the rest of the year...at least up to the exams...
 
APAC auditions this weekend...MUST FOCUS...
 
 
November 03

快立冬了

7号就是立冬了  冬天就快来了。 今天天气预报, 说东北都开始下雪了。 不知道今年的冬天会带来什么?
发张图吧
 
 
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